just a couple more.  Adam- carries the weight of the world on his shoulders. He is my champion, always there to cheer me on. So vulnerable to God…truly believes.

Sidney- she is my butterfly, trying to get out of her cocoon.

isabelle!! beautiful dreamer, trying to find a way to bring heaven and earth together ! Would also like to know how to turn high school musical into something spiritual so that I would let her watch it 24 hours a day !this is truly worth a thousand words !! Refeshed, redeemed, restored, rescued, revived !! It was a celebration, I was happy that pastor steve, who has seen the kids born and watched them grow, was the one to lead them into the next leg of their faith walk with the LORD !!my husband and the ram’s horn. WOW. It smelled really bad, but the sound of it is something I expect to hear in heaven. It shakes things loose, rearranges my way of thinking in a way….when I hear it, my mind and heart on focused on the Lord. can’t explain it. Isaiah- so tender that he breaks my heart, and so tough, that sometimes I can’t break through. He is a scavenger, and right now he is looking for the LORD and any information about him. He is so open right now, the Lord is realy speaking to him, all the time.

Joining a new book study. Its called face to face with God. Tonight when I put Isabelle to bed, God nudged me through her. I tried to turn over and lay with my back to her, but she was having none of it. She said “turn over, lay this way mom, facing me”. All I could think of was the fact that I had tater tot breath. Lucky for me, Isabelle didn’t care about that. There are very few people in this world that I am intimate enough with to lay face to face. I want God to be one of those. I want to feel his breath on me, see the blazing eyes,that up until now, I’ve only heard about.

                                I am so thankful that Isabelle wants me to lay that way…..face to face.

   I have been guilty of underestimating the impact of good old fashioned vacation bible school. So I feel its only right to correct that. My kids have been having a wonderful time this week at crcc. They are almost too excited to go to sleep when bedtime rolls around. This could be attributed to the green punch they have been drinking like little sailors on shore leave, OR it very possibly could be the HOLY SPIRIT of GOD stirring in their very tiny, young hearts !!

              Isabelle is so concerned with the kids in Mexico that she would give up her back to school clothes, if I asked her to. And that, is saying a lot. And then there is Isaiah….oh, he can make me cry and laugh all in the same breath. He is very protective of his heart, very private, never prays out loud. He came home last night and told me that when the songs start, he feels funny and tears fill up in his eyes. “the tears don’t come out mommy, they just fill up in my eyes”. What do I say to that ?

                               Thank you GOD ! Thank you Amy Grimes and Tisha Cullison ! Thank you Crossroads ! Thank you people that made the dvd of these songs !

                     Let us not underestimate the power of a childs heart, or a childs faith in GOD…..When Isaiah told me that, I could FEEL the mountains tremble.

My two sons, Adam(10), and Isaiah(6), fight all of the time. It is really getting to me. I have been praying in earnest for a while that God would give them some kind of common ground. I believe he will, but I am frustrated right now. Isaiah is very unique in his personality, he is not shy exactly, but gets intimidated easily in groups of children, seems unsure of himself. Adam has never been unsure of anything in his life, and walks with the confidence of a much older child. It breaks my heart when Adam makes fun of Isaiah for spelling a word wrong, or not understanding something. I know that Adam has jealousy for all the attention Isaiah gets from me, and so I really do try to be fair and equal.

                                  I need your prayers. It should not be this way. I want them to be on the same side.

  Also, Isaiah did not go to school the last 3 months of the school year.Please pray that his confidence will grow as we move toward the new school year. I would realy appreciate this.  It gives me a boldness to pray, when I feel the body praying with me.

                              hot salty tears run down my face, mimmicking the way I run for the cover of your grace. I am blind and cannot see the power you’ve placed in me…papa, set it free. release the you in me, papa, set it free.

a little over a year ago, the Lord gave me a word for Isaiah(my 6 yr old) He said “Isaiah has the heart of  a lion ” I thought this was a pretty darn good word, and Isaiah was pretty happy about it too. A few  weeks later Isaiah began this roaring thing he would do instead of speaking. It almost drove me out of my mind. So one night at bedtime, when Isaiah was mad and roaring at me…I cried out “Father help me, what do I do ? You gave me this man child, I don’t know what to do!” The Lord simply said “even little lions need mommies too.”

Whenever I go to a program at school, I sit there quietly among the other mothers feeling shy and inadequate.UNTIL….my child comes into the room, in this case,Isabelle. And then I become animated. Its almost as if I am saying “that one is mine, isnt she great ? Here I am, the mom of the best, cutest, smartest, most likely to succeed child !” My kids have the ability to bring that out in me. I take credit for their goodness, who am I kidding, their greatness. The funny thing is….Isabelle is thinking the same thing about me ! She thinks I am the smartest, coolest, prettiest mom there, and she can’t wait to introduce me to her friends.

             Its a great relationship that we have, both of us infatuated with each other.

God says” its that way for me too angie, your enthusiasm for me is returned and even more. so come angie, come like you promise you will .” (no kidding, he just said that !)